but in the end

pls lah. they are just wasting their money printing those words there. only student leaders will get the white shirt wad. thn wads the point of printing those words. rubbish. :(
i think this camp is quite cool because some ppl whom you hang out with are real leaders. you can feel it. be it those outspoken kind or those who serve the grp silently. most of them have what it takes to be a leader.

there is this guy in my grp tt i think tt he is cool. not as in appearance but the way he act as a leader. i can say tt that he is a servant leader that serves the ppl in our grp. he thinks for other and willing to volunteer his service to those who are in need. he take cares of the grp too. an example of servant leader .well. at least tt is wad is feel.
this is a camp tt is meant for leaders and most of them are outspoken. but i soon realise that out spoken does not means you are a gd leader. just like tt guy tt i've mention, he is not very outspoken and crack some jokes tt i don really get it. but i feel tt he will be a gd captain. i saw some other captains are totally funny and able to speak very well but in the challenge that we take on yesterday morning, i saw tt they are those who are not willing to put in effort, in fact, i feel tt they are just another follower who helps out because they need to... i donno. that is what i felt.

for the first 2 days, the camp is super boring. but tt doesn't mean that i didn learn anything:) esp 1st day. damn boring. sit on the floor for whole day until my back and butt hurts and we played some leadership games. aren't they just some normal game tt we play during camp? its some common game tt we've played during the past camps. they the station master will try to squeeze out some learning pts. every time like tt one.

'what have u guys learnt?'

'perseverance, teamwork, importance of communication.... '

is always this few...

the leader they expect us to be seem like quite high standard leh. its no longer like zhss where they stuff u any post whether you execute ur role properly or not , nobody cares. they just wants ur record to look nice tts all. but sr expect us to really lead the whole team, teachers are not really needed. tt is what i feel. but i donno if they teacher are really willing to let their hands off a not. we'll see.

wah~ yesterday morning. srd this time. they woke all sports CCA leader up at 1 am. =.=! without prior notice. and they bus us to ECP and we started running 5km. thn we, or the guys carried the jerry can and started to walk very very fast. but in the end, we like running... i've really got to say tt guys are damn strong sia. why arh? are they born to be stronger than girls? i feel so useless:( but there is really nothing i can do only try to motivate. but soon i became a burden. i became a casualty, each grp hv to piggy-back one casualty, which happen to be me :( then we walk for damn far, or they walk, cause i'm kenna piggy-back. many of them feel tt its very shiok to be piggy back. i thought so too. but u will just totally change ur mind aft 10mins. i've to kiap them so in order not to fall and my arms have to cling on to them really tight untill i've got muscle ache. the guys are hurting my legs cause in order not for me to fall, they can't let go their hand. so they hold on the the other hand of theirs. but everybody is so sweaty and their hand kept slipping. at first i told them it hurts. but untill some guy said

'hold on the the other hand so it won't slip'

aft tt i noe i've got no choice liao' just bear with it for ard 10km. thn in the end kenna bruises on 2 legs. i can't cross my legs coz i'll press on them and when i go toilet i need to be careful. coz when you go toilet, you'll just hang ur pant above ur knees and that is where the bruises are. so the rubber of the pants will just apply pressure on it and it will really hurt like mad. but i've really got to comment thr guys man, they are damn strong. esp the servant leader i've mention just now. he really help to carry the jerry can and help most of the time, damn power.if he is not carrying anything which inculdes me, he will ask our grp to move faster and catch up with th e rest.when the guys are carrying me i really feel tt they want to die like tt, but still hang on just to walk a few meters more b4 the pass me to another person. i really donno how they've got tt strength, some girls just walk and run already dying already. the guys still hv to carry the casualty and jerry can and run and walk, damn power!!!! boy power! in this challenge arh, most of the girls are really useless. i tried to carry the jerry can when is slightly less than half and when i lift up, i almost fell. for most team, except one, the girls are more power than the guys. the canonist girls, omg, the can use one hand to lift the more than half filled jerry can and start to run. just one hand ehh. ,my grp guys have to put on their shoulder. they damn macho sia. almost ending tt time, i really real like dying. serious. almost died. just so tired, only slept for 3 hrs and started all these 2okm of nonsense. actually its quite rubbish, coz who the hell esp for girls, will start running with a jerry can??? but yar lar, just wants to prove to ourself tt we can push oursself over our limit.

for this 20km i didn feel tt i kenna motivate, but it was during one of the TKD training where we ran 5km. at the start, i was like complaining and thinking 'siao arh, 5km, 2.4km i already want to die already, 5km? siao' tt is really what i thought. but... sorry i was so so wrong. i manage to push myself all the way, my first 5km run and non-stop 5km. aft tt, i nv fear running, in fact beginning to like them a little more :) and started to exercise more. i can proudly say tt i'm not a piece of jelly anymore. that was my aim whem i join TKD, 'not to be a piece of jelly/tofu' . i didn it. this incident really make me feel that nothing is impossible!!!... first i've survived 5km, thn 20km ....

its getting late, i want to blog more but need to sleep already, continue tml! still have many thing to say!